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Buen dia a todos
Just wanted to stop by and say hi, since I haven´t posted a blog in the last month.

Recently, God has been doing amazing things in my life. Specially when I took some time to complain again about certain things that I want to happen in my own way.

This blog is to share a Lil bit with you guys what is my frustration about, and how has God ministered in my life.

As most of you know, I committed to go to the missions field for a time of six months. after praying a lot, my heart moved towards the other side of the world. I thought it was pretty far, but seeing people with a desire of the word of God being preached and willing to support financially, and what is more; the amount of people that are praying for it, I realized that is not as far as it looks.

Today, a month and a half after my supposed departure, I’m still here, waiting for some documents so that can get the visa to that country. After I have the visa, I´ll be able to go through Europe easily.

The time has come when people ask me when am I leaving , and I don’t have an answer, or some question the fact that I’m going so far, when only God Knows why he called me to go there.

There are people that are not very close friends of mine, That I can see they don’t really care, but those that are close friends, don’t want me to go.

In the other hand God has done a great job killing me, instead a lot of new things are transforming my heart and mind. I’ve learned to be patient, and to understand that God is the one in control not me. Because I don’t know when I might get all that paperwork, I can not make plans further than two weeks, cuz I don’t know If I’ll be there or here.

My personality has been totally changed. I used to be an agenda-guy, now my life has no plans. Used to work really hard, now I need to follow God and get involved in as much ministry as I can if I want to feel productive. Good mentors are hard to find, specially when the ones you had were so Christ-like, my hope of finding spiritual fathers is almost gone, which has led me to realized that is not about people but about God.
 
That’s why I go to Him, Normally I spend a good time complaining a nd then I feel His grace, I think I’m running out of tears. I just take my frustrations to Him.
It feels like following some footsteps in the darkest night, you know you are following Jesus, but you don’t know where is he taking you to. Is in times like this that one gets to understand Israel, Moses trying to get them to this “promised land” that sounded more like a fairy tale compared to Egypt.

My mom is starting to feel depressed because I’m not studying nor working,

Sadly there’s nothing I can do, I’m not from this world, I’m dedicated to God, committed to do what he asks me to do. It was my choice a couple years ago not to live according to this world. If I´m to die in the missions field I´ll know That I haven´t wasted my life.

I won´t deny though That I miss living a “normal” life sometimes.

PLease keep praying.
Blessings to y’all.
 
P.S. plus the frustration of not being able to beat Mario in my computer games

4 responses to “My frustrations”

  1. Hey old friend. Man, I feel your heart and your pain during this time. We think about you often. We are both confident that God has amazing plans for you and that this is a waiting time for you to trust in Him. We love you man and are so proud of you! We are glad to call you a friend and a brother in Christ. We will be praying for you during this time. We will pray that the visa gets approved very soon. We love you brother.

  2. Dear brother David, It is interesting that you mentioned Moses. I am studying the life of Moses this year. Today one of our questions was to define the 3 periods of Moses’ life. The first 4o years Moses thought he was really somebody being a prince in the Pharoahs home. He spent the next 40 years finding out he was nobody.(he became a shepherd and was humble)and he spent the next 40 years finding out what God can do with somebody who thinks he’s nobody. Be encouraged that in Gods world their is no time table. He is at work preparing things for you. God is for you brother David. He wants you to remain close to HIM. Deut 32:4 He is the Rock, His works are perfect and all His ways are just, a faithful God who does no wrong, upright and just is HE!!!! Praying for you,
    Deb Knihal

  3. hey,
    i really hope that you get your burning torch soon. I would love to see you “get lead” to your personel promise land. I too am in a time of waiting and i know that God will fulfill His promises. Me extrano mucho. Y estoy emocionado a verte. No se cuando pero voy a volver. Dios bendiga hermano…

  4. Hello dear friend!

    Corey and I continue to lift you up in our prayers knowing that God’s will is absolutely perfect for you… even through this hard season. We are standing with you in faith that God will provide everything for you in His perfect timing. We love you a ton!!!

    Corey and Laura